I can not forget my first love

My name is ishika (Changed Name ) . I am from Delhi. My father is in electricity department and mother is house wife. I am of 19 years old. When I was in metric I started liking a boy of my class. His name was rohan (Changed Name) . He was from a poor family but I had not any objection to it. All students of the class had come to know that we are friends and even more than that. Our school was up to secondary. So our friendship went on very well up to secondary. We daily shared our lunch with each other and helped each other in making files. As rohan was very smart my all friends felt jealous of me. We always liked to spend time in each other’s company. Whenever we were in the good, we went on long drive. During metric to Senior Secondary class we never fought with each other. Although we were in the habit of getting angry with each other over small matters as, we both of us knew that. We could not live without each other so we always convinced each other after getting angry. Our friendship was popular in the whole school and even some teachers had come to know about it

But now the time has changed, after doing Senior Secondary class, I took admission in some another college far away from our area for doing B.tech and now I am living in a home as paying guest. Rohan have taken admission in some another college for doing B.SC as his parents do not afford money for the B.tech course. I do not know luckily or unluckily a boy of our class. One day he proposed me for friendship and I did not approve to it as I was already in love with rohan. But when he insisted me again and again I accepted his proposal. His name is gagan (Changed Name) . All the students of the college have come to know about our friendship. We have started spending time with each other. We daily call each other. I have feelings for rohan too. One day, rohan told me that he too wants to take admission in the college. Where I am studying as he has not interest in B.Sc he took admission in my college. Now I fear that rohan would come he know about my affair with gagan and he would leave me but I do not want to leave rohan at any cost because he is my first and last love. Please guys suggest me if I should myself tell about gagan to him or not.